Gaining weight is fun, losing the weight and the emotional impact that it has on you, is not. Again in this world of a yo yo dieting that I live in, the weight has come back on.
It is not like I didn't know that it was. You cannot go to fast food restaurants and not expect yourself to gain weight. You know that it is coming. The pants feel tighter, but you still have some of the pairs in the back of the closet that you swore you would never fit into again ("I will never wear that size again"). The shirts are shorter. I am not sure how my shirts got shorter when I gained weight, I understood how they were tighter, but not shorter, but somehow they were. In the beginning people ask you if you have lost weight, they know you look different, and assume that you have lost, but in reality you look different cause of the 20 lbs you have put on.
So why after you work so hard to take it off do you put it back on? Man I wish I had the answer to that question because if I did I would be a millionaire. What I do know is that most of us when we lose weight, put it, and usually more, back on.
I listen to programs on television that make it seem like the easiest thing in the world to lose weight, just stop eating! Well now there is a novel idea, if it was so easy then we would all be skinny. The problem with that is that, we HAVE to eat. Having an eating habit, which is what I call it, is similar to a drug habit, or a smoking habit, the only difference is that you can live without cigarettes and drugs, you cannot live without food. So that makes it extremely difficult to combat this problem.
There are so many times I have seen on a television shows where people are talking about what made themselves overweight, they were abused or had some other traumatic thing happen to them. I can understand that to a point. But me? I grew up in a happy home, with no abuse or neglect. So why is it that I eat to the point of obesity? I wish I had the answer to that question.
So again I go on the tangled web of weight loss. I know I need to stop with the excuses, "Not this week cause I have this.", or "Oh I cheated today so I mine as well cheat big time" Excuses, excuses, and more excuses. That is one thing that I am actually good at. So I am trying to figure out how I can do this, this time for the last time. I know I need to have a weigh in to be accountable to someone, other than myself. So if any of you who read this want to join me on this journey, feel free to leave a message and maybe we can do this together, cause I know I am not alone out there.
Needing a bigger boat for this journey......
